Stay at home mom

So, I am officially a stay-at-home mom. Friday was my last day of work. It was strange. I got to work early, no one else was in yet and so it was very quiet. It felt like my last day- much like the last day before summer of my senior year of high school. Bitter sweet. I felt two completely opposite but equally strong feelings pulling at me. It was the strangest feeling I've ever had. Sadness to leave my students, but excitement and sheer delight to get to stay home with the wee one. I had a really busy day trying to get things ready and finished for the new teacher. There was so much to get done that I stayed long after everyone else had left. I was there until nearly 9pm. It was such a long day. My class had a party for me, which was nice. We had cake from Ukrops. I love Ukrop's cakes. :) Some of the parents of my students came. It was so nice. My students all made cards for me and the staff at Faison signed cards for me. I couldn't look at the cards before I left. I tried, and started tearing up, but decided to save my tears for later. It was a stressful afternoon, and so I am afraid I did not get to mourn the resignation of my job. Instead I kept very busy until I left for home. When I arrived home, with all of these beautiful flowers, it was then that I thought about how the flowers reminded me of a funeral. It was the death of my job on Friday that was "celebrated" and the start of a new life. It reminded me of Spring- new life, new beginnings. I am really looking forward to this new chapter of my life. I have lots of goals and dreams and desires. I hesitate to write about everything that I want to do here- though I'm sure you'll find some hint of it in earlier posts- because I keep hearing negative feedback when I mention all of the things that I would like to do. ("Oh good luck with that!" "You'll never have time to get that stuff done!" "Keep dreaming!" "I wish I could've done that stuff when my kids were young!", you get the gist). So, instead, as I accomplish things I will try to document it here.

For now, please enjoy the beautiful flowers that I received from work. The pictures don't do them justice. They truly are beautiful and they smell wonderful! I love fresh flowers. :)